Curse of Love

Title: The Curse of Loving You

[Verse 1]
I learned how to smile without meaning it,
Laugh while my chest stayed torn.
I held your absence like a habit,
Every night, every dawn.
Your name still lives in my breathing,
Even silence sounds like you.
I thought love was meant to save me,
But it only taught me how to lose.

[Pre-Chorus]
I didn’t fall all at once,
I faded—slow and true.

[Chorus]
Loving you was a quiet kind of curse,
Not loud enough to warn the world.
It broke me gently, piece by piece,
Till I forgot who I was before.
If love is light, why do I ache?
If love is home, why can’t I stay?
I carry this pain like something sacred—
The curse of loving you.

[Verse 2]
I defended you in my own mind,
Even when you let me bleed.
I blamed my heart for wanting more
Than you were willing to give me.
Every “maybe” felt like hope,
Every “soon” just kept me stuck.
I waited where love stopped living,
Calling loneliness “enough.”

[Pre-Chorus]
You never asked me to stay,
Still—I never left.

[Chorus]
Loving you was a quiet kind of curse,
A slow goodbye I couldn’t hear.
I lost myself trying to keep you,
Drowned my truth in all that fear.
If love is warm, why do I freeze?
If love is real, why does it leave?
I wear this hurt like a second skin—
The curse of loving you.

[Bridge]
Maybe in another lifetime
You’d choose me without doubt.
Maybe I wouldn’t beg for crumbs
Or learn what love is without.
But here I am, still holding on
To what we never were.
Some hearts break loudly…
Mine learned how to endure.

[Final Chorus]
Loving you was the hardest prayer,
I whispered it every night.
Hoping somehow you’d turn around
And see me in a different light.
If I heal, it won’t be fast,
If I move on, I’ll move with scars.
Because some loves don’t end in hatred—
They end as wounds we guard.

[Outro]
I don’t hate you… I never could.
That’s how I know it was love.
No chains, no fire, no falling apart—
Just a heart that gave too much.

R&B, Dark, Cinematic, Sad, Female Vocals, Drums, Piano, Saxophone, Slow