Lost in Thought

Tired of feeling pain. Huracan, I be crying on the rain. So many happens, I'm going insanse, knowing depression's running through my veins. And I swear I really don't want no bullshit. Niggas be mad cuz they know that I prove shit. Found out my life is all full of illusions. Right now my brain is just full of confusion. Didn't know that my life was just a lie, thought she was dead but found out she alive. Saw her ass on instagram going live. This shit hurts, I ain't even gonna lie. To the damn world I just wanna say bye. (I just wanna say bye) Yeah, don't wanna be alive. Yeah... Why am I here? Had too much trust and it all disappeared. Only 15 and I'm on my way there, when I reach the top all these niggas gone cheer. My name's being called, but there's nothing I hear. Wanna go back to when I had no fear. Wanna be dead, but to death I ain't near. Found out this shit after a couple years. Asking myself "why it happened like this?" Why did from my life you had to dismiss? I'm still waiting for that one good night kiss. So many times that I will always miss. I be crying, alongside to my sis. Was about to just let you rest in peace... But I found out you ain't dead. I cannot get this shit out of my head. I don't even wanna get out bed. Still remember the last words that you said. Told me that you was never gonna leave me. My heart and brain cannot even believe me. I just be asking myself if I'm awake. I'm just thinking that my life is just fake. Having a brake down, let me have a break. So many shit that I will have to take, just let me be and tell me it's a mistake... (tell me it's a mistake)

hip-hop, incorporating elements of trap and R&B