You broke my heart before a boy could

Found this guy
His red hair caught my eye
Walked through the door
Momma asked what the smile was for
Already in love I said…
There’s this boy he’s got my heart
He’s got the deepest brown eyes I’d ever saw
And a smile so bright
She held me tight
But I also saw you
Out of the corner of my eye
You shook your head and rolled your eyes
You said your going to get your heart broke
But how could I
You broke my heart before
You can’t break a heart that’s been broken already
That night
I came running to you
Tears taking over my face
And you pushed me away
You told me if I had listened to you and do what you say
I’d never have to see the day
The day my heart broke wasn’t when he left
It’s when my father let go of my hand
It’s when that hand hurt me
It’s when I needed protection from the one person I thought would always protect me
When you stopped calling me your baby girl
When you stopped being there
When you stopped saying goodnight after a fight
I remember that night
The day I lost my voice
The day I lost my hope
But most of all I lost you
My father
The man that used hold me on his chest
The man I used to know
Died that night


That night….


I lost the sense to fight
He didn’t break my heart you did
How could I be upset
You taught me how to fish
You taught me how to swim
You taught me how to never let a boy take the smile from my face
But you also taught me pain
Suffer
Silence
How to cover my tears
And how to fake a smile
That boy that took my smile was you
You say I don’t listen
But I listen to you yell
Call me names
And tell me to get over it
I’m not over it
I’m tired of being mad
I just miss you
I miss the days when you cared
I miss the days you held my hand
I miss when you were there
Now you try to hug me
I flinch
You try to hold my hand
And suddenly my hands are full
I did listen when you said never let the boy that broke your heart back into your life
Don’t give him the time of day you said..

I guess I’ll fight the monsters off myself
dad

Guess I’ll hold my own hand

Be independent like you said

Most of all I won’t cry when I’m sad

I’ll yell when I’m mad

Just like you taught

And when that man with red hair takes my hand you let go of long ago

I will walk down the aisle alone

Because I let go of the boy that broke my heart

Little did I know that boy that would break my heart would be my own blood

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