Complicated

Since day one in the back of your mind
All you saw was your enemy,
Every single time you looked at me
that's what you finally said to me ,( right)
When I looked at you I saw my family
Imagine if you saw like me, a family
fallin apart right in front of your eyes
after doing all that I done for you
And I mean you never even had to ask twice
What I got in return how many beatings in my head how many times ( aint that right)
But you would never do that to someone that you love right??
Like when you told me that you loved me and would never hurt me right?
Calling me and texting me like crazy,
Then in less than seventy two hours i done got my head beat ( again)
I get to see the ugliness and get my fucking face beat again (and again)
But When I saw your face
I saw my love in front of me
when you saw my face
Now I finally know how you saw me
You saw me standing at the front line wit you
You saw me on the other side standing against you
This whole fucking time
God forbid tell me the truth tho right
It would have been nice
if you told me the truth instead of waiting five years wasting all that time
boy I swear everything you do
( why you so fuckin crazy)

This shit you doing
dont make no sense
Tell me how im supposed to understand and survive this
Too many different ways
too many different times
I done explain this
You too smart to do this all in front of our kids
I told you I just wanted a family
A father figure to my sons
and someone who loves me
Someone who promises to never leave and never cheat
Never hurt me and my babies
I know we both might be a lil crazy but
Now, how am I supposed to get my kids through this?
Now you can never change or erase this (this mess you made)

Why you do like you don't understand what you did to me
Like you don't understand what you did to our family
Why you saw every mistake I made as an act of war
Why every mistake I made in your eyes I should have been doing more
Even if you didn't know how to
You could have at least pretended to comfort me and love me
And at least try to understand everyone has a story
Instead you saw and treated me like your enemy
What the fuck i will have to do to make you finally see
(Why you so fuckin crazy)

This shit you doing dont make no sense
Tell me how im supposed to understand and survive this
Too many different ways
too many different times
I done explain this
You too smart to do this all in front of our kids
I told you I just wanted a family
A father figure to my sons
And someone who loves me
Someone who promises to never leave and never cheat
Never hurt me and my babies
I know we both might be a lil crazy but
Now you can never change or erase this ( this mess you made)

Now cuz of all of the pain
That you brought my way
No matter how much I still love you , I know you a mistake
How am I supposed to change
What already took place
Cant get back all the time what a waste
Now i'm stuck in the past , I'm stuck in this place
I'm stuck in my head
and i'm stuck trying to face
This mess that you made ooohhh whyyy you so fucking crazy

This shit you doing dont make no sense
Tell me how im supposed to understand and survive this
Too many different ways too many different times I done explain this
You too smart to do this all in front of our kids
I told you I just wanted a family
A father figure to my sons , and someone who loves me
Someone who promises to never leave and never cheat
Never hurt me and my babies
I know we both might be a lil crazy but
Now you can never change or erase this ( not this mess you made)

So now what
I swear I don't know
( I swear I don't)
Anything and everything i've ever loved with all of my soul ( all of my soul)
It's all out the window
(It's gone out the window)

Genre & Style: Southern Trap, Texas Rap, Hard 808 Hip-Hop, Storytelling Rap
Tempo & Rhythm: slow steady-paced, 77 BPM, bounce beat, heavy 808 bass, sharp snare, fast hi-hats
Vocal Style: Confident female sing meloncoly rap vocal, aggressive flow, fast cadence, clear diction, Southern accent
Atmosphere: Dark, cinematic, intense, rhythmic, Slow (66-76 BPM), Steady, Driving, Cinematic, Female Vocals, Harmonized Vocals, Falsetto, Bass, Synth