That's Not Funny

[Verse 1]
You say it sweet, then slide in the knife
Call me "too much," then blame my life
"Just a joke," but it lands so precise
Like you studied all my weak points twice

Every punchline cut from my fear
You whisper it slow so no one can hear
Then you laugh like it's nothing at all
While I'm bracing myself not to fall

[Pre-Chorus]
You play with my head like a game you can win
Then act like you don't know where I begin
You say I'm too much, too intense, too deep
But I'm tired of pretending I'm asleep

[Chorus]
That's not funny, it's a loaded gun
You point it at my chest when the room gets fun
You hide behind "just kidding" and a grin
Then act surprised when I start to cave in
You turn my pain into your punchline
Laugh while I'm losing my mind
If love looks like this, it's a symptom, not a dream
That's not funny to me

[Verse 2]
You know my skyline, all my cracked lines
You trace them just to see where I shine
"Too sensitive," you laugh, then you lean
Into the parts I try to keep clean

You say I'm crazy, I'm over the edge
But I'm just standing on what you said
You dress up your cruelty like it's cute
Then call me dramatic when I don't laugh along

[Pre-Chorus]
You say I'm twisted, I'm reading too much
But your humor's a weapon, it's not some touch
You know what it does, you watch it unfold
Then act like your hands are clean of the gold

[Chorus]
That's not funny, it's a loaded gun
You point it at my chest when the room gets fun
You hide behind "just kidding" and a grin
Then act surprised when I start to cave in
You turn my pain into your punchline
Laugh while I'm losing my mind
If love looks like this, it's a symptom, not a dream
That's not funny to me

[Bridge]
Say it straight, don't paint it in gray
Stop calling it love when it burns this way
I'm not your toy, I'm not your test
I'm not a joke that you can arrest

You want control, you want the thrill
But you don't want the cost of what you kill
If your favorite sound is my breaking point
Then maybe I'm done being your joint

[Breakdown]
(whispered, half-sung)
Go on, laugh
Say I'm too much
Watch me leave
Watch you lose your touch

[Final Chorus]
That's not funny, I'm cutting the line
You don't get to wound me and call it divine
Every "just kidding" is another scar
On the version of me that I used to guard
You say I'm dramatic, I say you're cruel
You don't get to play me like some broken rule
If this is your love, then I don't agree
That's not funny to me

[Outro]
No, that's not funny to me

Moody alt-pop, 92 BPM, minor key. Dark, cinematic production with intimate, confessional female vocals. Verses are sparse and breathy; choruses are emotional and anthemic but still controlled. Heavy 808s, atmospheric synths, subtle vocal chops. Themes: emotional manipulation, gaslighting, hiding cruelty behind jokes. Mood: bitter, vulnerable, defiant, nighttime, intense.