story

[INTRO — DISTANT PIANO, LOW PAD, SOFT VOCAL, SLOW BUILD]
I don't know what I'm supposed to call this
When every answer somehow makes me doubt it
Maybe I'm not lost, maybe I'm just learning
Maybe all this pressure means something's turning

[VERSE 1 — LOW RAP, MINIMAL DRUMS, MUTED 808]
I've been trying to keep my head above the static
Trying to act normal when my thoughts get frantic
I can say I'm doing fine, but I don't always understand it
I keep chasing expectations I never even chose
Maybe I don't need a perfect answer
Maybe I just need to keep moving forward

[CHORUS — EMOTIONAL MELODY, WIDE PIANO, DEEP 808]
Open the door and see how I tore
Maybe ill be lying on the floor
I don’t wanna be a bore
Its just lately it has been depressing
Losing interest in things that used to help me
May look tough but im really trying
To be the guy I wanna find
Maybe I should seek inside
And sink and cry

[2 SECOND PAUSE — EVERYTHING DROPS OUT]
But I just really wanna feel ok..
I wanna be ok
Even if I don't know how yet

[VERSE 2 — DARK RAP, STRONGER 808, LOW STRINGS]
I am really losing my mind
Stuck in a cycle
Maybe its my final
Cuz everything that once was gold
Is now lost or its either sold
Its almost like it is a code
Ill just stay inside this cold
Even though I may be bold
Ill just fold
Cuz I was told

[CHORUS 2 — BIGGER DRUMS, EMOTIONAL VOCALS, RISING STRINGS]
That ill break under all this pressure
It may look like its a light feather
Sorry im just so divergent
I just wanna find my purpose
Sorry that I don’t flourish
But if you really want me to furnish

[2 SECOND PAUSE — BEAT CUTS, SOFT PIANO]
But I just really wanna feel ok..
I wanna be ok
I just wanna feel like I'm doing alright

[BUILD — RISING STRINGS, KICK BUILDING, VOCAL ECHO]
You asked when I was burning
And ill be tossing and turning
Every thought gets louder when the room gets quiet
And I'm tired of pretending I don't hear it

[MAJOR RAP — FULL DRUMS, HEAVY 808, RAP ACCELERATES, DARK STRINGS]
I am going insane
I just wanna feel tame
Pull me out this bane
I don't even know what I'm chasing anymore
Every time I try to stand, I'm right back on the floor
I don't know what happened to the person I was
Everything I used to love doesn't feel like it does
And I'm trying, I'm trying, I'm trying to pretend
That I'm not getting tired of fighting again
I keep tossing every thought around inside of my head
Trying to find an answer to the things I never said
Maybe I'm the problem, maybe I'm the pressure
Maybe I'm just scared I'll never find my purpose
I just wanna shut the noise out, I just wanna breathe
But the harder that I fight it, the harder it seems
I keep trying to move forward while I'm dragged back by my fears
I just wish I could remember how to feel like me again
I don't wanna lose myself inside this cycle
I don't wanna be the person that I never recognize
I'm exhausted from the pressure, the questions, the doubt
I'm just trying to understand why it feels like nothing works
I wanna be ok
But I don't know how
I wanna be ok
I just don't know when

[BRIDGE — EVERYTHING DROPS OUT, SOLO PIANO, SOFT PAD]
Maybe the answer isn't waiting somewhere ahead
Maybe it's hidden in the steps I haven't taken yet
Maybe I don't have to fix everything tonight
Maybe I just have to make it through tonight
I wanna be ok
Not perfect, not fearless
Just honest
Just here

[FINAL CHORUS — HUGE VOCALS, FULL PIANO, STRINGS, 808]
Open the door and see how I tore
Maybe ill be lying on the floor
I don’t wanna be a bore
Its just lately it has been depressing
Losing interest in things that used to help me
May look tough but im really trying
To be the guy I wanna find
Maybe I should seek inside
And sink and cry
I am really losing my mind
Stuck in a cycle
Maybe its my final
Cuz everything that once was gold
Is now lost or its either sold
Its almost like it is a code
Ill just stay inside this cold
Even though I may be bold
Ill just fold
Cuz I was told
That ill break under all this pressure
It may look like its a light feather
Sorry im just so divergent
I just wanna find my purpose
Sorry that I don’t flourish
But if you really want me to furnish
You asked when I was burning
And ill be tossing and turning
I am going insane
I just wanna feel tame
Pull me out this bane

[2 SECOND PAUSE — EVERYTHING CUTS, CHILL, SAD]
But I just really wanna feel ok..
I wanna be ok
I finally wanna be ok

[OUTRO — SOLO PIANO, SOFT AMBIENCE, LONG FADE]
Maybe I don't need to have it figured out
Maybe being lost doesn't mean I'll stay lost
Maybe tomorrow I find one more reason
For tonight, I just wanna be ok

Male vocals, rap, emotional, Fast (120-168 BPM)