hard drugs

long calls on late nights,
with me were uptight
didn't get to feel this till later

drive me crazy
I love you but maybe
its harder than we would have thought

crying my eyes out, bloodshot
tipping the bouncers cuz he's hot
for getting my problems in worse way
before the memory starts to fade

I love you, I lose you
hard drugs I misuse
didn't have a problem till I met you

best friends don't lie now
I'm sorry but ill
have to find a way to do without your presence

sobbing and fighting
difficult but vibing
after all the sorrys that were said

I love you, I lose you
hard drugs I misuse
didn't have a problem till I met you

OCD go push my buttons
up then down
sleep then running
obsessions in the damn way

ADHD go push my buttons
said you care but know your bluffling
I don't care what you say

depression go push my button
pile of clothes all begrutton
what the fuck go to me today?

alternative pop (alt-pop) and indie pop, uses soft, intimate, and confessional vocals that slowly build in emotional intensity, capturing raw vulnerability rather than explosive pop belting, ue to indie-pop and singer-songwriter traditions, the lyrics are diaristic, focusing on heartbreak, the painful processing of a slow breakup, and lingering emotional trauma relies heavily on an organic yet atmospheric palette. It features acoustic and electric guitars, a prominent piano, layered bass lines, and nuanced drum programming alongside a rich, swelling string section (violins, violas, cellos, and double bass) conducted by Oleg Kondratenko