Paper Walls

[Verse 1]
Lines on my arms
Like tally marks
Counting the nights
I couldn’t stay

Mirror is blunt
Never looks away
Asking me softly
“are you okay?”

[Chorus]
But I don’t wanna hurt myself
Just to feel anything
I don’t wanna hide these scars
Under long sleeves in the spring
I’m tired of folding up
Every sharp and broken thing
I don’t wanna hurt myself
I just wanna stop the sting

[Verse 2]
Bathroom light hums
Flickers
Then holds
Sink full of water
Nobody knows

Phone on the floor
Buzzing all night
Your name is glowing
I don’t reply

[Chorus]
But I don’t wanna hurt myself
Just to feel anything
I don’t wanna hide these scars
Under long sleeves in the spring
I’m tired of folding up
Every sharp and broken thing
I don’t wanna hurt myself
I just wanna stop the sting

[Bridge]
If I call you
Would you stay?
Sit on the tiles
Help me stay awake

If I tell you
Where it hurts
Could your hands
Pull back the worst?

[Chorus]
‘Cause I don’t wanna hurt myself
Just to feel anything
I don’t wanna hide these scars
Under long sleeves in the spring
I’m done with going quiet
When my thoughts start closing in
I don’t wanna hurt myself
I just wanna learn to cling

To you
To life
To something thin
And real
And kind