Okay on the Outside

[Verse 1]
Smiling in the hallway
New shoes, same old test
Laughing at the lockers
Heart racing in my chest

I circle all the right jokes
Circle all the wrong thoughts too
Hold it like a backpack
If it slips, what will they do

[Chorus]
I’m okay on the outside
That’s what I always say
Tie my hurt in a hair tie
Hide it all away
But you see through my “I’m fine”
Every single day
You’re the one thing I’m scared of losing
If I ever say I’m not okay (oh-oh)

[Verse 2]
You’re waiting by the lunch line
Wave me to your table first
Ask about my weekend
I just talk about my shirt

You say you like my drawings
I change the subject, change my eyes
If you saw all the sad ones
Would you stay or say goodbye

[Chorus]
I’m okay on the outside
That’s what I always say
Tie my hurt in a hair tie
Hide it all away
But you see through my “I’m fine”
Every single day
You’re the one thing I’m scared of losing
If I ever say I’m not okay (not okay)

[Bridge]
What if I said
Today was heavy
What if I let
The tears get messy
Would you still sit
Right next to me
Sharing half your chips
Like it’s nothing

[Chorus]
I’m okay on the outside
But you’re helping me believe
Maybe I don’t have to fake it
For you to never leave
So if I say “I’m not fine”
Promise you will stay
’Cause you’re the one thing I don’t wanna lose
When I finally say I’m not okay (oh-oh)

[Outro]
Walking down the hallway
Your arm brushes mine
You ask, “How are you really?”
And I answer, “Scared…and kind of fine”